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More happens in life when you have someone to share it with, wanting to experience new things and have some company. Shortly after that last whinge I met someone at last - nice guys do win, we just have to wait for the jerks to carry out a few years disappointing girls first ha - there was a fear once I'd settled into 'adulthood' that meeting someone new would be tricky, being in an all male industry and mostly male friends along with a pretty solid work-sleep-eat routine I realised I'd have to figure out how to find opportunity. I had begun to be a bit of a yes-man anyway, and that's really all it takes is to just do things - mates going pub? lets do it. Someone needs a lift? sure thing. Company for a gig? New foodie place? Gelato at midnight? you bet. It wasn't a case of jumping into uncomfortable situations, just going with the flow rather than hiding away. People need people, and those people know other people and socialising snowballs.
I kinda wish I didn't have a job through uni as declining a few invites seemed to put me on a 'don't bother asking him he's probably working again' list. I was never into clubbing blah but missing a few nights out didn't build up the worthiness to then ask me to theme parks/road trips/just hanging out that I was probably free for. I knew plenty people, wasn't like I was friendless and I stuck around as long as I could with various people but being unavailable sometimes didn't cut it.
Anyway, I've been married to her over a year now so hurrah. It was a small but classy do, none of that one-upping performance rubbish that some people seem to think is necessary for the sake of impressing others. We actually enjoyed it, and for some reason the couples we have spoken to only talk of the problems on their day (maybe we are the ones doing it wrong ) Time is spent mostly going places, going car shows, eating ice cream and pizza, doing family things, going car shows. Life is better, I feel like doing stuff now I have company. Work takes up a lot of my time but with the rest of it I do like to cram my weekends, they feel so much longer that way. I just think back to my 5 month summer holidays between years at uni that I did nothing but sit at home, pop out rarely, lose interest in photography and somehow only manage to get 2 boards painted in all that time...Of course now I can't play games or watch tv for too long before I urge myself to do something more important but I guess that's a good thing.
Now, photography has taken a back seat for a long time, I do feel that i've fallen out of love with it, and it wasn't just because I had an awful 1100D for a while. I learned so much at the start with my little 3mp kodak and that kept me going but I find that I'm already knowing what the picture is going to look like, or I just think the image has been over done. I think to myself 'why bother' someone else has probably taken a shot like this and probably better. I do like a good view still though, and our holidays are very much about finding them - North Wales wins that so far ha. What does also interest me still is the treasure hunting at car shows, finding the genuinely rare ones or a good setting at least. The guy that took me on as a contributor really helped improve my car photo game and I always keep him in mind if I can at least get a good shot for him, although that is purely down to chance and patience.
I guess what I fear most is coming to the thought that whatever I look for isn't really worth doing. It's just photos, oh another vector, it's just cars, landscapes big whup. I don't follow my interests for reward but sometimes I wonder what I am getting out of it.
I kinda wish I didn't have a job through uni as declining a few invites seemed to put me on a 'don't bother asking him he's probably working again' list. I was never into clubbing blah but missing a few nights out didn't build up the worthiness to then ask me to theme parks/road trips/just hanging out that I was probably free for. I knew plenty people, wasn't like I was friendless and I stuck around as long as I could with various people but being unavailable sometimes didn't cut it.
Anyway, I've been married to her over a year now so hurrah. It was a small but classy do, none of that one-upping performance rubbish that some people seem to think is necessary for the sake of impressing others. We actually enjoyed it, and for some reason the couples we have spoken to only talk of the problems on their day (maybe we are the ones doing it wrong ) Time is spent mostly going places, going car shows, eating ice cream and pizza, doing family things, going car shows. Life is better, I feel like doing stuff now I have company. Work takes up a lot of my time but with the rest of it I do like to cram my weekends, they feel so much longer that way. I just think back to my 5 month summer holidays between years at uni that I did nothing but sit at home, pop out rarely, lose interest in photography and somehow only manage to get 2 boards painted in all that time...Of course now I can't play games or watch tv for too long before I urge myself to do something more important but I guess that's a good thing.
Now, photography has taken a back seat for a long time, I do feel that i've fallen out of love with it, and it wasn't just because I had an awful 1100D for a while. I learned so much at the start with my little 3mp kodak and that kept me going but I find that I'm already knowing what the picture is going to look like, or I just think the image has been over done. I think to myself 'why bother' someone else has probably taken a shot like this and probably better. I do like a good view still though, and our holidays are very much about finding them - North Wales wins that so far ha. What does also interest me still is the treasure hunting at car shows, finding the genuinely rare ones or a good setting at least. The guy that took me on as a contributor really helped improve my car photo game and I always keep him in mind if I can at least get a good shot for him, although that is purely down to chance and patience.
I guess what I fear most is coming to the thought that whatever I look for isn't really worth doing. It's just photos, oh another vector, it's just cars, landscapes big whup. I don't follow my interests for reward but sometimes I wonder what I am getting out of it.
Echoes of creation
Hey so I am still alive, pretty much entirely on facebook and insta now. Being a growed up takes up a lot of time in a household, no more 5 month summer holidays like back in uni days, which I did barely anything with...it's easy to waste time and I really wish I'd focused on my ideas, I barely pushed and those that ripped off my style have done a lot better. I had visited here a few times, although my outdated computer stopped showing the site properly for a while until it's recent update so now I can see things! I remember the active days here and I know I've neglected the page, lots of friends made have vanished or re-invented themselves without me - no fall outs I guess drifting apart can just happen. Still running around car shows taking pics, just got myself a prime lens which will help get the results I'd been aiming for, narrow focus is very handy for improving car shots. Car shows have a small window of interest so I've got to get them online within a day and try and
my quarter century this year
And what have I done in that time? A lot less than I had hoped, and sure as hell a lot less than pretty much everyone else by now. I could go on (and I did, but seen as really that would only be for my benefit I typed it all out and then deleted it...quite therapeutic)
18 months into the job, still reasonably happy in it, I do have a few issues with concepts of timescale and a complete misunderstanding of what designing actually involves which I'm starting to think is just part of the job for a designer to put up with. In other news I may have acquired a mini so look out for photos next year if things go smoothly, things are so cheap for min
fingers in ears
here i am typing to the audience of myself, deviations overlooked, activity unnoticed. this is more of a record of thoughts seeing as noone comes this way any more.
i am onto another job, my dream job so it seems, vehicles and graphics, couldnt ask for more. its amazing i got here and so easily i could have missed it, at the same time i was in the running for another job. that one was pretty much guaranteed, and easy if a little boring, plus the loo was practically in the middle of the office. it would have been like clark kent in a phone booth but with me emerging 20 mins later as captain IBS.
so i had that one and this new fancy one comes
all my friends are hot
ever notice that? i cant be the only one to notice how purdy all their chums are :lmao: :flirty: srsly, all my friends are lovely beautiful people
aanyway, ever wanted to do something but just feared the step to change into uncertainty?
so i dont think i wrote on here but i quit my design job back in february. sometimes a mention of it was met with 'oh so wheres your new job then...?', followed by the look of total confusion when i said there was no next step, some couldnt comprehend the departure from routine 'living'.
i could not carry on that way, i started every day with complete dread, the hour drive to work, straight day of drama, ho
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I'm 30 next year...
I'm 30 next year...